Something old or is he new?

Something old or was he new. I borrowed him in my world of misty blue.

Friday night Saturday morning he appeared, my ex boyfriend with his cute little beard.  He held me close as if he never wanted to let go but that morning I wasn't sure if it was a dream or was it a ghost.

No it was him, yes he is real, the smell of his cologne said if he pop the question your answer is"I WILL". He was great . Now all I have to do is wait, to find out if there will be another date. Nevertheless, I enjoyed every moment of him and spent all that Saturday thinking I committed a sin.

Not a moment I'm extremely proud to say but with all the things going on in this world we can only live day to day.  I'm getting over myself one day at a time I keep telling myself everything will be fine.

Vacation is over and im back to work, really hits, I'm not just a girl with another blog,I was put here to shock the world.

Do something spontaneous who cares we only have one life to live.

SHE

Feeling Myself

So im finally up, out and back on my grind.  Im so proud of me you have no idea.

Just want to say thanks to my friends, family and love ones for the support and encouragement in a dark moment.

The last week was busy as ever, from flowers to balloons to a group of 8 drunk girl all in their feelings and having a ball.  Too bad what happened at the party stays at the party.  I must say it was good to just let go and have fun. 

Didn't get to take the pictures you were expecting but I think my face on this picture says it all.

So I'm trying to enjoy my last 2 days on vacation and prepare for the reality of going back to work Monday please pray for me I'm so not ready but very thankful i have a job to go to.

Late Nights and Early Mornings

Since things have changed so has my sleeping habits. Contagiously I am going to bed late and waking up really early in the mornings so I'm back to my usual spot as a couch potato. Tonight I'm watching the marathon of Will and Grace while cool breeze brushes across my feet, I cant help but have Christmas thoughts run through my mind and I absolutely love it.  

It is finally beginning to feel like fall. Unfortunately, Halloween isn't a big celebration around here and we don't get thanksgiving holidays so I can't wait to start smelling apples, pine, the newness of house items, warm candles, blankets,  hot chocolate, socks, eggnog ,ham, turkey, cakes and be able to watch a spree of hallmark movies. 

Christmas is very important to me as I am an only child and don't get to share that family experience.Thought this year I would get to have my dream holiday (whats wrong with a little reminuising)  waking up next to my boyfriend, have breakfast in bed, exchange of gifts and watch movies until family dinner but that looks very far from happening so my mom does a very good job to make this a very good time for me. i guess god knows best, I'm so thankful for her god bless her heart. 

To all you friends and family out there, grab a book; start planning christmas is closer than we think.

Is this normal???

Is it normal for a girl to feel like this?

I feel like Carrie Bradshaw from sex and the city when Mr.  Big left her to the church.  I have been in bed for the last 2 days. The more I sleep the more tired I feel.  I have no appetite and I just want to be alone. As long as I'm awake my mind goes into over drive and every thought is about him. 

I keep asking why or what happened that would make someone do such a thing to me and there is no real reason.  Not like this is the first time I've had a cheating boyfriend but I think because he was my friend first this makes it so hard, especially when he says he is happy with me and want to make this work but does nothing to assure me that is the truth.  I guess actions do speak louder than words.

I try talking about it so i can get it out my head, I try not to talk about it so I could stop rehashing memories in my head and nothing seems to work. For such a small place I wish I could pack up and skip town to make it all go away but we all know running away from our problems does not solve them. 

A big part of me want this to work and there is still the though i dont want to be the fool. Maybe an apology would do the trick. I don't even know.

I try not to talking about relationships on my blog so please forgive me if i sound like just another girl who had a bad relationship that is bitter and crying for help but what does one do to make it all go away?

"Get over it" is easier say than done.

When it rain it pours......

I meant that literally.

It started raining from Friday evening and all Saturday morning.  It thundered and it lighten, as I layed in bed listening to the soothing sound of water flowing over the rocks on the hill in the back of my room.

It sound so romantic, too bad I was alone and those who enjoyed that cuddling moment most of them woke up to floating stilettos and drifting furniture from minor flooding.

Got a few calls from friends and colleagues to say the storm did not go well with them which makes me even more thankful for the life god has blessed me with. So just remember when we sometimes have our hearts and minds focus on one thing life has ways of bringing us back to reality showing what is more important.

I miss my boyfriend and that cuddling moment but I'm thankful I didn't get flood out so what is your pouring moment?

Vacation! Day ♡2♡

It was errand day. You would think I be off to an early start but that sure didn't happen.

Went to bed late the night before slept late, woke up and went back to bed. Finally got up around midday to get my work started. I know most of you thinking that's so late but when you already know your day is going to be long you have to take advantage of the little time you got so I slept.

Got out did my banking, paid my vehicle insurance (yea you know that INCASE something happens policy). Did some other little things and got home around late evening.

I also wanted to start getting the stuff sorted for my friend and co worker's bday weekend retreat next week but this darn phone won't stop ringing with work calls. So there was a bitter sweet moment because all the stores were closed.  I know it's slow season but seriously why close for so long. The bakery close and the flower shop close. So that has to wait until next week Monday. Sorry to say small gathering are just as tiring as big functions the only difference is the quantity and cost because you still have to follow all the steps. So please look for party updates and another busy week on my homecation.

Cheers,
Ladee

Vacation!

Ohhhhh it feels great to be on holiday.  Not the type of holiday I was expecting but I am grateful. My vacation was suppose to start Monday but was called in to work so yesterday was my first day.

Recently, I've been having emotional stress from my use to be wonderful boyfriend but I'm trying to have a positive look at life in this situation and I hope it's works out so this little time off is much needed.

However, yesterday was great. Had an early morning start, cereal for breakfast, took my sugar Oreo to the vet, had a late lunch at the tiki hut , went to church which (was awesome to hear Rev Patricia Charles) and got home in time to watch Tamar and Vince. I have 2 more weeks to go so let's see what else is in store.

Now you tell me what would you do on a homecation?