Catching feeling

HLast week i worked my butt off, by Wednesday I was so tired I felt like I didn't have those few days off for the holiday but nevertheless I am grateful for my job.

Sunday I did not cook and it felt so good.  He didn't care to call and neither did I. I slept in and ate out. I ironed for the week and watched tv in sweet peace.

The week before I was interrogated as expected but this time he went a little too far.  From searching my room to asking 21 question about issues like he was an old grandpar. Questions that shouldn't even be an issue.  Truth is I am an will never be this heartless person he wants me to be. I am so much better than he will ever have the decency to see.

He didn't get answers I really wanted him to hear and this year I'm trying not to swear. What I really wanted to say is good bye my dear. You can't see me as your wife and it's about that time I start living yea its my year.

A new week starts and I still feel the same cant wait to get to that point where my emotional status change.  Oh yea he watches those too. You know when you guilty you think it's always about you.  Lol. It funny how guys think until it relates to them they just can't see.

Today I was told im a miserable happy in a funny way but with all these emotions what can I say.

My 2014 forecast

Hi Everyone, 

Hope you had a great Christmas and brought in what I look forward to being a great new year.

I know most of you have set resolution that won't make it past February but Im not sure if that's what im into.  I have set goals as I always do all to make me a better person, last year I was successful and hope to make it in 2014 too. To the disciplines congrats and keep up the good work but those who have failed better luck next time.

For those who have been following my blog sharing my pain and feast for the joy of a broken world I thank you and I have so much more to share.  Only this time you may not like it so much as my life moves on and most of you are stuck in the old days of sad relationships and hopeless futures all because you are afraid to take that step.

See what I failed to inform you is that I have always been independent, strong,loving, caring, confident, intelligent and striving to be the best at any thing I do so this go round I'm embracing me and the motto is "love me or let me go". How is your year forecast looking?.

Yes she

I made it through another weekend and had a great Saturday night,  looking forward to many more incredible days in this thing called life. It only gets better adjusting to knowing my ways. With god on my side there will be so many sunny days.

Maybe, my heart mind body and soul is focus on someone else a little more work will make him my spouse.  My ex boyfriend that's exactly what he is, don't even see this being a successful affair.

I look forward to taking on this thing called life and maybe one day soon ill be someone's proud wife. Things may not always go my way but I am thankful every day.

Work is work as usual what can I say today. I wished the cheater boyfriend a happy birthday.  Yea I know you're wondering whats going on but please remember I did nothing wrong.

I miss him. What more can I say, I miss that smile that use to lighten my day.

Oh well life goes on im looking forward to say yes there will be another day. 

Something old or is he new?

Something old or was he new. I borrowed him in my world of misty blue.

Friday night Saturday morning he appeared, my ex boyfriend with his cute little beard.  He held me close as if he never wanted to let go but that morning I wasn't sure if it was a dream or was it a ghost.

No it was him, yes he is real, the smell of his cologne said if he pop the question your answer is"I WILL". He was great . Now all I have to do is wait, to find out if there will be another date. Nevertheless, I enjoyed every moment of him and spent all that Saturday thinking I committed a sin.

Not a moment I'm extremely proud to say but with all the things going on in this world we can only live day to day.  I'm getting over myself one day at a time I keep telling myself everything will be fine.

Vacation is over and im back to work, really hits, I'm not just a girl with another blog,I was put here to shock the world.

Do something spontaneous who cares we only have one life to live.